taking risks
monday
9:58am
life.. is all about taking risks. situations require decisions. may it be minor or major decisions. you will never know if you made the right turn or not until you realize it in the end. whoever invented the saying “nasa huli ang pagsisi” is god damned right. i’m not saying that i regret the things that happened in my life. i promised myself not to regret anything. because i know, that with every decision that i make, there is always something, even if its just a simple thing, that i learn. and that is the key to my next decisions. the risks we take either make our lives simpler or even more complicated. more often than not, when you’re placed in a certain situation,feelings act faster than your mind. and in the end, who’s there to blame? no one else but yourself. and admitting your own mistake is like chewing your own words. that’s when the word PRIDE comes in. me? I’ve had my pride up above my head and way down under my feet. with the situation I’ve gotten through, my feelings acted like a hungry lioness feasting on a bunch of steak and my mind like a hanging computer needing to reboot.
Hurting other people is what i hate most, but sometimes, you just cannot avoid it. i’ve been there, done that too many times and as always, there are no other words left in my mouth but SORRY. but then somehow, i always find myself in that very same situation i’ve been through. and in the end, i find myself bleeding more than anybody else.
As i write this, i’m sitting on a bench with one hand flickering my cigarette, with people passing me by and cars zooming around. the church bell starts to ring as if saying it’s time. time for what? i dont know.. but amidst all this, is someone who’s willing to chew everything up, even her own words and put her pride under her feet once more to make things fall into their right places.
10:36am
isang lumang entry na rin ito. mga 2 years ago ko nang naisulat.
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